The cellar part II…

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Right now I am suffering with a major migraine, anxiety, depression and I am heavily medicated. However, I could pull up a comfortable chair and visit with you for hours.  “Me,” you ask, of course. It matters not who you are, just that you understand this condition of mental, physical and spiritual life. Most of all, I am happy if you are kind and interested in the deeper signs of life and those that attempt to live it. I could visit with you, but when I am like this, nothing stops me from being a real nasty person. In fact, it’s like holding back a tiger; I have almost no control. The smallest thing is a huge irritation. My head might as well be under the Liberty Bell while being struck with a sledgehammer.

Like many of you, my life is complicated and often painful. There is no need to use a lot of adjectives. There are almost no words to describe this. People don’t get it, no matter how hard I try.  They try to minimize it as if I just bumped my toe, “shake it off and it will go away. They see me as someone with a headache.  I even find it hard to fully explain it to my doctor, psychiatrist and my therapist. They all use the, “Mr. Happy,” approach with me God forgive me, but it pisses off! Unless one feels heart pain, they have no idea what it feels like, right?  I just can’t explain it to you! Trust me; I spend a great deal of time, thinking and acting positive. Our Lord, Jesus, gives me a great deal of comfort, but for-whatever reason, I must endure this. He does use my illness; I have, compassion empathy for others, especially children and the elderly. There are many lessons to be learned in suffering.

Jesus is so good and speaks to us, both in the Old Testament and in the new.

“Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence?…
If I say, ‘Surely the darkness shall fall on me,’ even the night shall be light about me;
Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You, but the night shines as the day;
The darkness and the light are both alike to You.”
Psalm 139:6, 11-12

“For You are my lamp, O Lord; the Lord shall enlighten my darkness….
As for God, His way is perfect; the word of the Lord is proven;
He is a shield to all who trust in Him.”

2 Samuel 22:29, 31

Was it God that gave me this illness? I think not. It was my mother Sandra and her ever so abusive and evil husband Woody. He like to beat me, humiliate, sexually abuse me. He also enjoyed the torture of solitary confinement. The homes on Cape Code, for the most part didn’t have finished basements. Not at all. Bastard! You see, they were damp cold, cellars. Concrete voids, under the house. Mold and mildew were a huge problem.  A person should not be locked in one. The cellar ran the entire length of the house, whatever the size. The only source of heat was a furnace that did almost nothing except heat the upstairs. It was cold and it was damp. The dampness made blankets almost useless. Horrible looking spiders lived down there too. I would spend hours hunting them down. They terrified me.

The smallest thing would set this criminal off. He hated me. Why? Who knows. I hated him, but moreover, I prayed to God that he would release me. I didn’t realize the extent of my punishment at that time, it was far worse than prison. Whatever crime that he would put on me was met with these two words,”Good Night!” Forgive me if I have already mentioned this, it seems the thing to talk about now. What that meant was this; no matter where I was or what I was doing, I was to stop, head down to the cellar and get into a pair of dirty and damp pajama’s, (my mother did not do my laundry very often, she hated me too.) There would be no reading or anything else to amuse myself. The light was to be off leaving the room pitch black at night, and in winter, like early evening all day long. The hardest part, was there was never a “time frame,” a day or a week? I never knew.

The time spent on restriction, as it was called by my mother, (who threw me under the bus any time that she could), was about 95%. I was in that cellar for years. I went to school dirty, not bathed, my clothes unwashed . I wore sneakers from the dollar bin at Stop&Shop, that tore on the first day allowing the stench of my dirty socks to catch the attention of my classmates. My hair was long and matted with oil and dirt. I believed that I was a dirty, nasty kid who no one liked. In fact I disgusted those around me. As you can imagine; I had no self-esteem, lived in sadness and fear. In school I was a favorite target of the bully’s. To add insult to injury, I suffered from a terrible problem with wetting the bed. I know that the odor of urine was horrible. The kids, made sure to tell me, every day. You would think that the weekends would be something that I longed for. Waiting for each day to get closer to the weekend. That was not the case at all. Being in that cellar was far worse than what I endured at school.

Do you know what I am thinking right now? No, you couldn’t possibly, but I was just thinking that this all began, some forty-seven years ago when I was seven or eight years old. My grandchildren are around that age. When I look at them, it seems impossible to think of a child as a victim. Thank God they are not. Anyway, the weekends went so slow because I fell asleep early and woke up early. The clock moved in triple slow time. I had no clock or watch, but I learned to listen like a blind person and could hear the bell from the upstairs clock, it rang every thirty minutes. That half hour might as well have been eight hours. Time literally was torture to me. Most days there was no breakfast, if there was, it would be some generic bowl of cereal with lumpy powdered milk. No lunch was ever provided. There was fresh whole milk in the refrigerator, but only for my half brothers and sisters, (Woody and Sandra’s kids). They drank whole milk my two sisters by my Dad, well we all drank the water with powder chunks in it. Thankfully there was supper. Every night at five PM Sandra made a meal. It wasn’t much but it sustained me.

 

 

 

 

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The Science of Depression

 

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Can you tell how I feel by looking at me?

Could It Be Depression?

Being unhappy isn’t the same as being depressed. Depression is a term often used loosely to describe how we feel after a bad week at work or when we get dumped. But major depressive disorder — a type of depression — is much more complicated. There are specific symptoms and signs that determine whether it’s depression or just a case of the Mondays.

Determining if persistent, unshakable feelings are a result of depression can start the process of healing and recovery life. Read through these warning signs and test yourself to see if it’s time to see a professional.
Changed Feelings
Michelle
Major depression is a mood disorder that affects the way you feel about life in general. Having a hopeless or helpless outlook on your life is the most commonly associated symptom of depression. Other feelings may be worthlessness, self-hate, or inappropriate guilt. Common, reoccurring thoughts of depression are vocalized as, “It’s all my fault,” or “What’s the point?”

Michelle

Lost Interest
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Depression can take the pleasure or enjoyment out of the things you love. A loss of interest or withdrawal from activities that you once looked forward to — sports, hobbies, or going out with friends — is yet another telltale sign of major depression. Another symptom of major depression is a decreased sex drive and even impotence.

Fatigue and Sleep

Part of the reason you might stop doing things you enjoy is because you feel very tired. Depression often comes with a lack of energy and an overwhelming feeling of lethargy, which can be the most debilitating symptoms of depression. This could lead to excessive sleeping or no sleep at all.

Depression is also linked to insomnia, as one might lead to the other and vice versa. They can also make each other worse. The lack of quality, restful sleep can also lead to anxiety.

Anxiety and Irritability

Recognizing Depression

Sure, Pablo Picasso’s “The Old Guitarist” might have summed up the depressed painter’s emotions during his Blue Period, but often people with major depression see plenty of red, so to speak. The physical and mental toll of depression also contributes to anxiety and irritability. Depression also affects the sexes differently. Research shows that in addition to irritability men may display symptoms not typically associated with depression, like escapist or risky behavior, substance abuse, or misplaced anger.

Appetite and Weight
Weight and appetite can fluctuate differently for each person with major depression. Some will have an increased appetite and gain weight while others won’t be hungry and lose weight. A distinguishing factor to determine if the dietary changes are related to depression is whether they are intentional or not. If they’re not, it might be a clue that something larger is wrong.

Uncontrollable Emotions
One minute it’s an outburst of anger. The next you’re crying uncontrollably. Nothing outside of you prompted the change, but your emotions are up and down at a moment’s notice. Depression can swing your moods around, keeping you away from the calm you so desperately want. In a similar way to another mood disorder, bipolar disorder, moods can fluctuate uncontrollably, which is one reason why the two are often confused.

Looking at Death
Recognizing Depression
The scariest reality with depression is its connection with suicide. In fact in 2013, more than 41,000 people died from suicide in the United States according to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention.

Suicides rarely come without showing symptoms first. Often people will talk about it or have a first attempt before succeeding in ending their life. If you or someone you know are suicidal, get help immediately or call the

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

Getting Help
Recognizing Depression
If you have had some of the previously mentioned symptoms for more than two weeks, you might be suffering from major depression disorder. Recognizing that you are depressed and finding the right information is pivotal to getting the right help.

Depression affects millions of people, but there are varying treatments available, from lifestyle changes to medications. No matter the path of treatment you choose, asking for professional help is the first step to getting back to feeling like yourself again.

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Recognizing Depression
The scariest reality with depression is its connection with suicide. In fact in 2013, more than 41,000 people died from suicide in the United States according to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention.

Suicides rarely come without showing symptoms first. Often people will talk about it or have a first attempt before succeeding in ending their life. If you or someone you know are suicidal, get help immediately or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

Getting Help
Recognizing Depression
If you have had some of the previously mentioned symptoms for more than two weeks, you might be suffering from major depression disorder. Recognizing that you are depressed and finding the right information is pivotal to getting the right help.

Depression affects millions of people, but there are varying treatments available, from lifestyle changes to medications. No matter the path of treatment you choose, asking for professional help is the first step to getting back to feeling like yourself again.

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The Science Of Anxiety

 

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Most of my life, I have suffered from PTSD. Depression and Anxiety are the worst part of this illness. I have been looked at like I was a martian or crazy, when I have tried to explain what I am dealing with. It has been very hard to obtain effective treatment in the mental health world. Fortunately, I have had a doctor that is in tune to my illness and I have been fairly comfortable for some years.

I really don’t care what your assessment of me may be. You would have to get to know me. I have found that most people, in my life, have liked me. I have worked in the fast paced occupation of emergency medicine. Most of the time, while on duty, I was suffering the most profound symptoms. I said I don’t care; I actually do, I Must as I spent many years hiding it!

All that I have asked for is that people do not alienate me and try and understand. I am not a mental monster. I am a Christian who, serves God. It is he that has kept me fairly comfortable. Imagine, if you can; sitting home busy reading and without warning all of these symptoms attack you at once!

Here is a writing on the topic for your approval:

Symptoms of Anxiety and its causes

  • Excessive, ongoing worry and tension
  • An unrealistic view of problems
  • Restlessness or a feeling of being “edgy”
  • Irritability
  • Muscle tension
  • Headaches
  • Sweating
  • Difficulty concentrating
  • Nausea
  • The need to go to the bathroom frequently
  • Tiredness
  • Trouble falling or staying asleep
  • Trembling
  • Being easily startled

 

What Causes GAD?

The exact cause of GAD is not fully known, but a number of factors — including genetics, brain chemistry and environmental stresses — appear to contribute to its development.

  • Genetics: Some research suggests that family history plays a part in increasing the likelihood that a person will develop GAD. This means that the tendency to develop GAD may be passed on in families.
  • Brain chemistry: GAD has been associated with abnormal levels of certain neurotransmitters in the brain. Neurotransmitters are special chemical messengers that help move information from nerve cell to nerve cell. If the neurotransmitters are out of balance, messages cannot get through the brain properly. This can alter the way the brain reacts in certain situations, leading to anxiety.
  • Environmental factors: Trauma and stressful events, such as abuse, the death of a loved one, divorce, changing jobs or schools, may lead to GAD. GAD also may become worse during periods of stress. The use of and withdrawal from addictive substances, including alcohol, caffeine, and nicotine, can also worsen anxiety.

How Common Is GAD?

About 4 million adult Americans suffer from GAD during the course of a year. It most often begins in childhood or adolescence, but can begin in adulthood. It is more common in women than in men.

 

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Creation

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Creation

This is profound lesson that, I think we may take for granted at times. Mankind is very interested in self-expression. That is why we see his name on the things that he creates or improves upon. I play the guitar a bit and see many professional guitarists with their name plastered on their “customized more improved,” guitars. Artist sign their work. People seek out for the autograph of famous people. The space shuttle, an amazing creation, bears the name Columbia or Challenger, etc.: and USA. We really do create and take ownership.

I don’t think that I am a very creative man. However, I have always believed myself to be a thoughtful one. So I guess that I am a bit creative when I think of something that I believe to be interesting. I either write it down (my expressive need) or share it with someone. No one seeks out my autograph and my name appears in only one place, “The Book of Life.” I believe that anything that God wants me to create comes from him, through faith. That may be, him answering my prayer, but teaching me how to help myself, to improve upon whatever it is that I need.

When I was saved December 12, 1980, I did not understand the bible at all. I believed in God as “God is the boss,” kind of thing.  However, I learned much from the church elders and friends. I can look back and see how I was “created, by him in faith,” as a Christian man. God is the most amazing!

Wayne Woodward

 

Created in his image NACM (c) 

June 27, 2015

Wayne Woodward

Gen 5

  1.  I would have to say the most positive thing in my ministry is the amount of hurting people that he wants me to minister too! When I first started this, I wasn’t sure that anyone would be helped by me. I knew I could talk with them and comfort them, but I lacked the faith, to allow Jesus to do HIS work. Over the years and more so when I was ordained in 2009; it was a work in progress. Thankfully and happily I expect that people will receive what he wants for them and that he will provide what we need. It is a great joy to see people that were down in the dust, happy and thriving in their lives, with Jesus in the center!

I am blessed by this as I have many people that I enjoy communicating with. It gives me the opportunity to express myself, according to his will! (I had to throw express myself in again.  There are brilliant and creative people that he has sent to me and not so brilliant people that are indeed still creative. Why? It is faith. For all of this, I am thankful. We do indeed serve a loving God!

  1. I have been thinking a great deal on creating a website. Not exclusively for weddings and other Christian Services, but a site with help and resources. A safe place where, in confidence that they can write to me with their concerns. There would be prayer and devotions. It would be chock full of opportunities for a person to accept Jesus as their personal Lord and Savior. After all, that is the main goal. I meet a lot of people in my wedding ministry and often do follow up with them. It is amazing to see how many people in all circles need and wants Jesus, but may not even understand it. I am praying that the Lord will help me with this one. Websites can be complicated, but I have faith that He will show it to those that he wants me to work with, according to his will.
  2. There certainly is strength in numbers. If the Lord wants this to happen the he will send me more opportunities to help his people. There are so many websites, but I know that God uses whatever he wants for his own glory. Therefore I have faith that he will show me the way and that it will improve my effectiveness. I also have to mention continued education, here with NACM and other resources. Professionals are students of their industry, whatever that may be or even non-professionals. I consider myself a lifelong student and servant of God.
  3. An encouraging statement to another participant:

Response to Students GENERATION 5 N.A.C.M.

 Reply by Rev. Wayne A. Costa Woodward 

How awesome that God had bigger plans for our ministries. We all know that it is not surprising. The Lord wants to use us for his will and he does. It is good to hear that you are happy in your work too! God bless you!

As I read about you becoming a grief counselor, my heart and soul warmed, not to mention a tear running down my cheek. You see, I have been helping sad and hurting people since I was fifteen years old. I started in a nursing home. It was a small town so my young age was overlooked and I was in a vocational school majoring in health care. I have always had a magnet pulling at my heart for lost, scared, lonely people.   Me, such a young guy, I saw many elderly people that had no one visit them! Not even at the holidays. Nothing has to be worse than to have your neighbor in “bed 2,” have Christmas joy with family as you hide behind your curtain. This drove me crazy, and I was always a person who wore his heart on my sleeve, as they say. It was such a sad, situation.

To see it over and over, I began to realize that maybe I could add an hour or so per day to talk to someone. Help them read their mail, clean and or repair their glasses. It seemed that no one on the nursing home staff cared, or I prefer to think, that they didn’t have enough time to do these things. I worked on level three care, that’s what they called it back then and it was mostly bedridden, incontinent people some lucid, others with crippling Alzheimer’s.

We worked very hard during regular shift hours getting them up cleaned up, beds remade, getting them fed, cleaned up again and back to bed. Many of them had serious decubitus ulcers from lack of movement. We did help some with that. Being there for the above mentioned people has always been a passion of mine. It has come from the Lord; there is no doubt about it.

God bless you,

Wayne A.Woodward

Gen 5

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Communication is Everything, Right?

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Ludwig Van Beethoven

 

Listening to Moonlight Sonata is a wonderful treat. The Lord, has given everyone a gift. It’s what you do with that gift that counts.

It is clear to me that that Mr. Beethoven practiced his music for untold hours. He practiced until he found the vibrations that he was seeking, his very own tone. In music, tone is a musicians main tool. It cost a lot and often takes years to obtain, however, there are some that reach out and grab it immediately. Those are the people that amaze us.

Having never heard a single note, that would flow in to Beethoven’s auricle, circling around through his auditory canal and stimulating the ear drum creating activity of sound with the small bones of the inner ear-hence sound, crisp clear sound. Every note of the scale is rich and the journey then begins.

*Beethoven was born in 1770, and was introduced to music at a young age by his father who was a piano and violin teacher as well as a talented tenor. Young Beethoven was considered a child prodigy when it came to music, and performed his first public concert in his hometown of Bonn when he was just seven years old.

He continued his musical career while learning from some of his great contemporaries, like Christian Gottlob Neefe, who taught him composition. He played viola in the court orchestra and became familiar with operas, several of which were by Mozart. He continued to study Mozart, along with Bach and other famous composers. By 1791, Beethoven had composed several of his own works and began publishing these compositions just a few years later.

In 1795, Beethoven performed publicly in Vienna for the first time. He had developed a reputation with the piano, and wowed crowds with either Piano Concerto #1 or Piano Concerto #2.

All of Beethoven’s achievements above were done—as far as we can tell—with quite good hearing.  This soon changed. Starting around 1796, we have references of Beethoven mentioning in letters hearing “buzzing noises,” but it wouldn’t be until 1801 when we have documented evidence that he had been gradually going deaf. Specifically, Beethoven wrote to his physician, stating:

For the last three years my hearing has grown steadily weaker . . . I can give you some idea of this peculiar deafness when I must tell you that in the theater I have to get very close to the orchestra to understand the performers, and that from a distance I do not hear the high notes of the instruments and the singers’ voices. . . Sometimes too I hardly hear people who speak softly. The sound I can hear it is true, but not the words. And yet if anyone shouts I can’t bear it.

The exact cause of Beethoven’s deafness is unknown, theories have ranged from syphilis to the composer’s habit of dunking his head in cold water whenever he was tired, among many others.

*By  May 8, 2014

An amazing feat of communication. Beautiful notes create lovely music. Imagine a little seven year old boy that seems to be able to learn difficult piano concerto’s and is able to compose his own music that is still sought after today.

Next I will attempt to share with you the breakdown in communication in my life, faith and in my career. Fuel by lack of faith in Jesus, I was swimming up a raging river, all the while, I could see Jesus’ hand reaching down to help me go in the right direction. There was no doubt about it. I was foolish, immature and a misbehaved child of God.

Stick around. I’ll tell you how I could have had a much less stressful life!

James 1:19 ESV 

Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger;

Proverbs 15:1 ESV 

A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.

 

Wayne

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“A Splash of Ludwig Van Beethoven”

I am sure that  you won’t mind if I take a short break and let the keys of “Ludwig,” relax my thoughts as I meditate on Jesus.

Moonlight Sonata. Enjoy, if you wish.

Thank you,

Wayne

Psalm 1:2

But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night.

Psalm 19:14

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer.

 

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Real Christmas makes me happy.

 

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Jesus loves his little Children, Merry Christmas to all.

Christmas does make me happy. Gifts are nice but to me they are not necessary. Do not get get me wrong; I love to make others happy with a Christmas gift. It is always a good opportunity to help the poor and tell them about Jesus. Do not, we realize that this is urgent? Emergent? If we don’t tell the man on the corner about Jesus, he may never know about him. Tragic. I have been sick and have slowed down, but each day I get stronger and soon this will pass. I know that God is calling me, as his servant, to lead people to him, period. It makes me sad that I feel so heavy to the floor. I pray that the Lord give me great energy to use for his glory. Will you pray that too?

 

Merry Christmas everyone!

Luke 2:1-15

So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no guest room available for them.

And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 10 But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people. 11 Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord. 12 This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.”

13 Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,

14 “Glory to God in the highest heaven,
    and on earth peace to those on whom his favor rests.”

15 When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let’s go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about.”

OUR Savior was born! I too echo glory to God in the highest Heaven and peace on Earth to those whom his favor rest! Can you just feel the incredible celebration that is going on right now? Jesus came to save the world!

May God richly bless you, my beloved Family, Brothers and Sisters in Christ!

Wayne

(C) By Wayne A. Woodward 2015

 

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